this is for sure, definately, the worst christmas break i've ever had!

my parents and i fight almost everyday about pretty much nothing important

i almost got kicked out last saturday

i'm not allowed to sleep in

we cant go to therapy until after christmas break

and then last night one of my friends said we were gonna hang out but he was lying :P

it hasnt been all bad, but i really have to pretend i like my parents and everything is fine, or i'll get kicked out. and i hate faking it :(
even school and work is difficult to decide on where to go, what to do...
but i'm really considering waukesha, because i have some good friends who go there. the only problem then would be work... i have no idea..
but i really would prefer to work with animals than people, and i CANNOT sell things (more faking it lol)

however, the rising crescendo in all this madness is KANSAS CITY....yebo... going to One Thing at the International House Of Prayer, with 2 of my best friends, and we gonna party with the holy spirit and thousands of believers...i cannot wait, and im sooo thankful i have enough money for food/hotel room :DDDDDDD
well gab's parents are going too, but its cool cuz they'll pay for gas :) hopefully they let us run free

i had heard this song, and listening to it kind of before, just mainly the "how do you do" part...
but it just hit me a moment ago, that this song was written to/about God.
so i listened closer to it and WOW.
its quite amazing.

Forgive us our trespasses
As we forgive those who have trespassed against us
Give us this day our daily bread
Daily bread, daily bread

In cello et in terra fiat voluntas tua
Gloria Spiritui Sancto

What language do you speak
If you speak at all?
Are you some kind of freak
Who lives to raise the ones who fall?

Hey, could you tell me why
The cat fights the dog?
Do you go to the Mosque
Or the Synagogue?

And if our fates have all been wrapped around your finger
And if you wrote the script then why the troublemakers?

How do you do?
How does it feel to be so high
And are you happy?
Do you ever cry?

... I sometimes cry ...

You've made mistakes
Well that's OK 'cause we all have
But if I forgive yours
Will you forgive mine?

Hey, do you feel our pain
And walk in our shoes?
Have you ever felt starved
Or is your belly always full?

How many people die
And hurt in your name?
Hey, does that make you proud
Or does it bring you shame?

And if our fates have all been wrapped around your finger
And if you wrote the script then why the troublemakers?

How do you do?
How does it feel to be so high
And are you happy?
Do you ever cry?

... I sometimes cry ...

You've made mistakes
Well that's OK 'cause we all have
But if I forgive yours
Will you forgive mine?

Forgive us our trespasses
As we forgive those who have trespassed against us
...Sameh Zoonoobee Allah... [Arabic. English translation: "Forgive my sins, Oh, Lord"]
Give us this day our daily bread
...Mechila... [Hebrew. English translation: "Forgiveness"]
Daily bread
...Ya Allah (S'lach lanu)... [Hebrew. English translation: "Oh, Lord (Forgive us)"]
Daily bread
...Ya Allah (S'lach lanu)...

Forgive us our trespasses
As we forgive those who have trespassed against us
...Sameh Zoonoobee Allah...
Give us this day our daily bread
...Mechila...
Daily bread
...S'lach lanu...
Daily bread
Thine is the Kingdom and the Power and the Glory
Amen!

How do you do?
How does it feel to be so high
And are you happy?
Do you ever cry?

... I sometimes cry ...

You've made mistakes
Well that's OK 'cause we all have
And if I forgive yours
Will you forgive mine?

... Will you forgive mine? ...

How do you do?
How does it feel to be so high
And are you happy?
Do you ever cry?

... I sometimes cry ...

You've made mistakes
And that's OK 'cause we all have
But if I forgive yours
Will you forgive mine...?
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my opinion?
this song manages to ask really good questions while being really disrespectful. i personally believe that jesus, the son of God, who is God, knows what its like to starve, suffer, cry. it's all in the gospels.
truthfully, i wish more singers would be so brave to sing about God.
But i wonder if Shakira really listened for His answer? or was too busy

well i didnt want to go to church this morning, but im pretty glad i did.
they gave out to all the people doing their finals this week bags of candy and cookies and playdoh :D
wiiiin
but the sad part was, i met my dream guy
he's a social worker, who works with kids in gangs in chicago
*how admirable hehe*
and he was amazingly nice looking
and we were debating about politics, which isnt exactly flirting, but i like it when guys dont suck up, you know?
however..... i found out after i left he's married
haha oh man ... its so sad
i knew theres was this girl who i thought was his girlfriend or something, but married???
oh well he started, what can you do.
fortunately, i dont know his name or would ever meet him again
but it makes me wonder if i will ever find someone like that...
his wife is soooo lucky

why doesnt anything work out?



apparently i need to keep working on my self till then...